sorry man. You are right, in ome senses. I am not making posts to tell ppl I am drunk. Cool points lost their significance to me a while ago, whether you can believe or not. If you can't, that's your decision/fault. I was trying to make a joke of my drunken bull**** behavior because it emberasses me and I wanted to make some kind of vent for it. Eveything I said in my posts about not being able to get on was true. IDK why you have to belittle me and make the fact that I am imperfect and an ******* so much more apparent to everyone else. It is kinda unfair. All i can do adn al i try to do is tlk about what I know (or think I know) and when I do not totally know something, I talk about it with people that know much more than me so that I learn more. i do not think I am the next christ or anything. In fact, I think that I am quite misinformed about my intelligence and am kind of wasted material. I do not like it when people with more experience and knowledge dissect my speech and make a clown out of me in front of everyone else. My intent bears no malice and I do not think that I deserve it. This is why I blew up. I know it's not a good reason, but I thought i would explain myself either way. I am not at all a good guy most of the time, even though I would like to be. I wish more people would ask me how i feel, what i think, and what my motives are, instead of making me a caricature of whatever negative attribute is applicable at that time.
This thread started out of confusion because wally had said that I should reset my password and I couldn't find out how to do so. I really don't want ppl to think I am drunk all the time, nor do I think it is cool. Every one of my idols worked themselves to death, free of alchohohol. My unclie drank himself to death by choice, with my family on the sidelines telling him not to. He had ample oppurtunity to change his ways. I played "Happy Trails" on guitar for his funeral. I do not think drninking racks up "cool points. " I am also against teh idea of cool points altogether, for many reasons. It hurts me a little when everyone in this krew seems to have an image of "TheDude" drawn up in their mind, and everything I do is raped by that image. I don't think that I am who you all think that I am. I am by no means perfect at all, but I try my best to be honest above all, and I don't think anyone realizes that.