Oh jesus.....
you guys don't even want to know.
Well, I used to be like d.wolf, except probably 8x as depressed and worthless. If I could go that, I would have prevented myself from letting myself get that way. In reality, you really are in control of things like that. Acting like the victim all the time just results in you being worthless. There are other things I'd change, but I don't want to mention them, so this one will suffice.